So I'm here in F-L-A

I got here yesterday, and have finally gotten the script this evening . . . I have tomorrow to rehearse, then go time on Friday . . . I have to crash, but I will update this more often starting tonight, or tomorrow rather.

AHH!!

I'm going nuts.

I haven't slept in 24 hours, but this is all intenitonal. Instead of sleeping, I went to 3 parties last night, and stayed up until 6 AM, and went straight to work.

Dumbass.

I have to work something like 50 hours between tomorrow and Thursday, before I head to Austin for ACL, and I have NO TIME after ACL to get ready to go to Florida on Monday.

Dumbass.

I have reduced my errand time for my upcoming trip to TOMORROW from about noon to 3 . . .

Dumbass.

I am, instead of going to sleep, after 24 hours of being awake, about to leave for a date. I've planned this date in the past 15 minutes, as before I called Audra, I was just going to go to bed.

Dumbass.

I've had 3 requests from girls I've dated recently (not girls, I'm dating, persay, but girls I would go out with occassionally before I left for Oregon) to see me before I go . . . I have yet to respond to any of them.

Dumbass.

I'm currently blasting "Ballad of Jim Jones" by Brian Jonestown Massacre.

Not particularly dumbass.

I did just ask my date how old she was . . . (21)

Dumbass.

I'm out.

Good Luck to me.



Last 10 songs played by my shuffle of my Ipod:

Scouts Honor - Les Savy Fav
Ballad of Jim Jones - Brian Jonestown Massacre
One Down - Ben Folds
Witch Doctor - Galactic
Farm Fresh Onions - Robert Earl Keen
Average Man - Turin Brakes
Certain Songs - The Hold Steady
Lost Myself In Search of You - Matt Nathanson
Neighborhood #1 - Arcade Fire
Casino Queen - Wilco

I've decided...

I've taken the job in Florida, and I'm heading out the day after ACL Fest (The 26th)

I think I'm happier when I'm on the road . . . it makes my time at home a bit more important I guess . . . My friends, unfortunetaly, mean more to me when I've been gone for a while, than when I'm around them all the time . . .

I'm in a weird place right now, because I've basically spent the past 2 years of my life traveling, bouncing from job to job . . . I realy kind of love it . . . I find myself being very internal right now . . . I love my friends, but I guess I'm in a self-discovery mode at this point in my life. Quarter life crisis and whatnot. I'm not making much sense, so I'll stop now.

Now it gets personal...

I haven't felt like that about someone in years. This unfortunately include a couple of RELATIONSHIPS that I've been in . . .

I'm beginning to realize what it was . . . perfection.

I couldn't have written a better script for my evening, and yet it all happened . . . She made me realize how I want someone to make me feel everday of my life. I couldn't ask for anything more.

I'm starting to think that I'm just one of the lucky ones who get to experience a perfect time and a perfect solitary moment . . . I've haven't felt that way when I kissed someone since . . . anyway . . . I'm also beginning to realize the solitary nature of the evening. Did it happen because there could be no consequence? Did we both give in because there was no reason not to? We couldn't break eachothers' hearts in the morning, we couldn't begin to grow to hate things about eahother, we couldn't begin to despise the way the other spoke or chewed food . . . we just had that one night where we could let go . . . there was no fear of wrecking a future that didn't exist. I've been to a place where few go, and now I know what I want to feel when I'm with someone . . . and it's all because of a girl 6 years my junior . . . I will forever cherish that night. As it is I can't stop thinking about it . . . regardless, I'm very lucky. I hope someone makes you feel the way she made me feel that night. It's a remarkable thing.

Seattle/Portland

Seattle was fun . . . the whole town kinda gives off the "too cool for school" vibe, but otherthan that, it's a great little town. It's bigger than I thought it was going to be . . . Michael and I went and saw Jude night before last. He was really mediocre, but I was happy to be seeing live music in Seattle . . .

I can tell you that there is atleast one pretty cool disc golf course in Seattle . . . fucking hippies . . .

I did leave one day early to go back to Portland, my new favorite town, usa. Portland rocks man, I'm telling you . . . I got in town and went to this amazing dive of a movie theatre to see the new Jeff Buckley documentary, then Heather and I continued our tour of the city . . . I'm seriously falling for this city fast, it's kinda ridiculous . . . anywho, we had a great time . . .

And, just so you all are aware, I'm sitting in the Portland airport, wait to come home . . . welcome me, I might not be staying long . . . I might be in Florida for the month of October . . .